Tomorrow, it is officially Ramadhan. Both my roomates are heading back to their home.. and here I am updating wordpress alone, in my room, and the corridor looks empty than usual. I am supposed to go to masjeed to perform the taraweeh– but I got no friend to go to. And I feel very very guilty right now. 😦



In 7 hours time insyaallah I will wake up for suhoor. My mom called, and asked whether I have any food to eat. I replied with biscuits–peanut butter cream biscuit which I just bought earlier today.

Anyway, this year is definitely going to be different, insyaallah.

I will make use of every single day to make good deeds and sadaqah more! \o/

Ramadhan Mubarak! ❤ 

*picture taken frm Maher Zain’s fb page. If you want me to take it down, just tell. thx*




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I don’t always understand lbgt people, but when I do–I don’t.

I don’t understand how someone can become a lgbt person.

I don’t know what happened to them.

What happened to their “nature”..

It is extremely confusing.


They want a world that support their “rights”, to support their “choice”. But, what will happened to the world if EVERYONE is a lgbt person? There will be marriage, but how do the future generation will be born? Because they married with their own sexes–and how would they defined their “spouse” to be “beautiful”?–or “handsome”?? 

And since they are at the legal age to get married, ie they have reach puberty, then how can they reach puberty if they are homosexual?

Like, when a girl reached puberty, her womb is ready to carry a baby, but baby is produced from the intercourse of a married man and his wife–but if the girl is married, how the (what do they called?..) the… urm. other person is who is the same sex as her… a woman to make a baby for her?


Before that,  why do God created a man and a woman? Why didn’t He created human with one sex only? 


Then, He created human with TWO sexes ONLY. But why did He gives them… us sexual changes? 


I like questioning. 😀


Becau-se, it is NATURE. 

Everything on earth is in pairs. The sun, pairs with the moon; the day pairs with the night; the good and the bad; the happy, the sorrow;  the win, the loss;— men, women.

As a conclusion, cuz my time is going to reach 11 and I have Calculus II to study— so!

As the conclusion, lead a healthy lifestyle– both physically and mentally… and sexually. Or just look at the mirror. YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING. YOU ARE A HUMAN. NOT A DONKEY–OR MONKEY–OR FISH. FISH IS GOOD.

Think for a second–ok just for about a quarter of hour– when a person is dealing with his/her sexual “problem”, there are other people out there who are now dying due to starvation, or crying their heart out, pumping fist in the air, not knowing whether they are going to breath for the next 24 hour–because they are in the middle of a battlefield–fighting for their land. While we are sitting in our most comfortable chair we can afford scrolling through facebook pages–or wordpress. 

I am not good at advising, on paper, or on pc screen.. I’m a math major, not a writer, but I love to type. I like the sound.. *klik klak klik klak*

Thats all. 

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you~ 

the blessed month

In less than a week time, the Muslimin and Muslimat across the world will be celebrating Ramadhan, the 9th month in the  Hijr calendar. This year will be my 12th year.. not the official full 12 years yet.. :\

For those who are going to celebrate their first Ramadhan this year, I must say, welcome and may you have the most blessed and most cheerful, exciting, full of challenging yet prosperous Ramadhan and may you have a barakah month. 😀

Here are the do’s and don’t during the Ramadhan:-

  • The fasting starts from the dawn or the Subuh adzan and finished at dusk; and are prohibited to do things that will cancel the fasting and the people who will escape or given the free ticket to not fasting..
  • such as:
  1. eating and drinking; of course.
  2. sexual relations during the day
  3. enter something into body’s cavity. Like kids always do, sticking their finger into their nose. My teacher said it is not wrong, if our nose is itchy, just scratch it slightly, not until the very deep, until you have the “feeling”. Another example is pour water into your ears or eyes. You know, if water enters the ears, we have “that feeling”… I am suck at explaining.
  4. period, or women in nifas, wiladah. The period after giving birth.
  5. Musafir. People who travel more than 2 marhalah, or more than 90 kilometres.. for good purposes.. only.
  6. purposely giving out sperm.

These are the things that will increased our deeds during the fasting month:-

  • give charity, not just in money form. In the old Malaysian culture, housewives used to exchange deserts among themselves. They’ll ask their children to give the home-made deserts to every neighbour they known and they’ll get the neighbours’ in exchange. My father told that his mother only make one type of desserts. But when the iftar, the break-fast, there are various kinds of desserts on the floor. The old Malay culture don’t eat on table. Some don’t even have dining table in their house. It continues in the modern culture where dining table are only for put the dishes and all family members gathers and eat on the floor with hands, and the richer have a piece of cloth, while some family just put some old newspaper together… never mind if you can’t imagine it.. I understand.
  • read al-Quran, since it is the month of Quran
  • sleep. Only in this special moth where sleeping will count as deed.
  • and of course, taraweeh! This is the ultimate thing of all. If one is too lazy to go to bazaar to buy for the iftar, or too lazy to cook, they can just walk(or drive whateves) to the nearest masjeed to break-fast. Its free too. Unfortunately, we have to wash the dishes or at least sweep the floor after finish eating.. oh and in old Malay culture, they did it quite differently. They will prepare a huge plate, not a plate, more like huge iron pan that looks like plate but huge. Then they’ll put everything in it. From the rice, the side dish, vege, meat, everything, (cooked) and 3-4 people will share the same “plate”. I think this is happen in the middle east also… not sure.

And this is the last one, things that me and my sister usually do during the fasting month… maybe not this year. She’s in the east coast while I’m stuck in Seri Iskandar… hmmm

  1. Every fasting month, every year, there will be a show called Jejak Rasul; it is like a series of the tales from the quran ect. And I remember that one year where they have the series about 3 main samawi religions, Islam, Christianity and also Judaism. It is extremely interesting I hope they’ll make a DVD of it. And there also one year that they documented the Islam in the east-European countries; range from Russia to Kazakh and so on. I think they are so unique. You know, they look like Asian, some of them but they speak Russia!
  2. Watching talented chefs making cookies and cakes.. and dishes. 🙂
  3. Watching drinking water/mineral water commercials.
  4. Reading comics
  5. Drawing
  6. why I even do all these..

Ok. I think that’s it. I’m gonna prepare myself! Also, I wish you all, (maybe its too early)…. never mind.. post Ramadhan al-Mubarak! and have a nice one! And don’t spend too much on iftar… be healthy! Drink a lot of water or you might have urinating problems during the day…

p/s: Make sure the kurma is not out of stock.

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you

there might be some information loss… sorry if there are.

the video.. pretty much sums up my entry. Maybe a little.


Couple of weeks ago, I bought a book about Rothschild at the small fair at my uni. At first I didn’t want to buy it… cuz I don’t have much money. But I think.. what the hell it’s education. They are not teaching this on text books!.. So, I bought it at the price of RM40~ (I forgot the price, my friend borrowed it..)

When we all know that Rothschild and the conspiracy theory is unseperate-able.. and I’ve watched the infamous series The Arrival and since then.. I feel “something”.. hehe

A little content from the book, 

The first chapter is about a guy named Amschel Moses Bauer, then continued with his children, then to this grandchildren.. became the most succesful businessman in history and have the richest bloodlines in the world.. this fascinates me. I mean they just started out by exchanging coins and then they did business through banking.. and they way they run the business, is amazing genius and dirty. 

I mean, its like clairvoyant you know.. plus they good at manipulating people to do their job.

Money is needed to run things on this planet. But unfortunately, money is just a paper. Back in the day of the anbia’, people are using gold and silver as a currency. So, the currency is stable and there is also baitulmal, a place to keep all the taxes paid by citizen and then distributed throughout the nation to the poor and the unfortunate. So, it act like a bank, that is run by taxes to help in the development of a country.. and it is controlled by the khalifa not a non-government organisation that said “national bank”..

Back to the Rothschild thingy.

According to the book, they way the Rothschild run their business is extremely unique. They run it by bribery and by high interest and of course by sponsoring only the desperate one.. and for things that benefits them in the long run.. for example, they sponsored the first Zionist congress in Basel, Switz. 

In my opinion, they act like moneylender, more like a loan shark, in Malaysia, the term “ah long” is used. (yes it is a Chinese term) They are sweet talker, good at manipulating, and controlling; but despite all that, they are surprisingly low profile! I mean, I always imagine that rich people wear gold-made t-shirt.. lol. Some publicity are required by this family imo. Can’t you imagine? In the middle of both the WW, they can build a mansion? And transferring Jews from the Europe to the Middle East? awesome

Writing of controlling, one thing that makes the Rothschild family a powerful family, they use debt to control others life.. according to the book. Also, I hope I’ll found the book by Niall Ferguson, The House of Rothschild: Money’s Prophet, 1798-1848. The book title itself… boom! But these kinds of book are rare. Because they’re treasures; and of course it is hard to find it on library bookshelf, or in stores.. and I don’t buy things through my pc screen.

The conclusion is. Don’t do debt. From Allah we came, and one day for sure to Allah we return. I mean. Money isn’t everything but with money, we can do everything, and owning people is one of them. Like the Rothschild case, they are Jewish, and they want a state. So, they’ll do everything they they can by any mean necessary to achieve their mission and vision. But we, no matter who you are, a Muslim, a Christians, whateves. We are all have mission in our lives.. and to free ourselves; but if we tie ourselves with a pile of debt, that means we are torturing ourselves; we made ourselves a slave.. to our own species.. its pathetic. 

When we are a human being too, why bother to be a slave to someone that we can beat the shit out of them? We are indeed a slave, to our Lord, to Almighty, not to someone/something that shits and fart as we are.. 

My suggestion is, 

Read a book. Plant your own garden. Spend less. Avoid debt. And return to our Creator. Maybe some people said that. Its just some money matter. Yeah. Money that control your whole bloodlines. Money that own the world and your body and your mind. Just turn around and look around. We’re like.. in a mass hypnotism state. We don’t care about things that are not connected to the internet. We just eat whatever we want, drink whatever we like,… talk whatever we fancy.. without thinking. 

While we sit in front of our pc scrolling, there are human that was even not sure whether they’ll survive the next day. While we are eating the latest domino’s, there are people starving. While we are spending money, there are people who are owned by someone.

I didn’t say it is wrong to do your…thing. But, if we could spent hours playing skyrim, why not spending a little time reading? And start a debt free life? For now, I am trying to be a vegan, not a complete vegan. But just to live a healthy life style, I eat meat, but at small quantity, because I am allergy to chicken… its tragic isn’t it? 😦 I love chicken… and start to keep coins. So that when the world have run out of silver coins, I still keep it. And I also wanted to live a debt free live, but I am having a huge debt (soon). A study loan. I don’t want to apply for it at the first place… but I’m poor. The only way to transform the study loan into a scholarship is by maintaining a 3.0 and above of cgpa.. so far so good for 2 semesters… 4 to go! 

ok. done with shit talking…

The best and the good come from Allah and the worst are from my weaknesses and my ignorance.

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you. 



In a few years time…

Due to my busy-ness as a uni student.. ( I sound sucky) I can only update this shit like… once a months? probably.. and I can’t afford the internet.. plus the internet connection is extremely weak here.. I’m pretty sure almost every college student face this problem.. 😦

And also, ramadhan is coming up! oh I can’t wait!! I hope my menstrual cycle don’t interrupt me during this holy month..

Oh man, writing about ramadhan… its just beautiful!

And fasting in college is far more… challenging than when I was in home. You know, got to walk to school, with the outdoor activities and all that. If my class is finish at 12, I can just lying down in my bed all day long and get up just to buy food…

But that is not what I’m going to do this year! i want to be as proactive as possible! I want to spend my time recite the Quran! And be a good Muslimah! yeah!

oh well.

this is my view from the back of my dorm.. the place is restricted to men.. so it s bonus! lol just kidding, just kidding. This morning, theres a bunch of fogs around the area so i decided to capture it…

This is an extremely interesting article I’ve ever read! Actually I found this article months ago, I followed his tumblr. But then, I read on newspaper about Emma Stone, and she is fear of death. So, by adding Emma Stone and this article, maybe it get more interesting… dunno. I just sharing this to anyone who are able to read, and anyone who visiting this site. 😀

Here it goes, credit to mikael101.

Rabi-ul-Awal 02, 1433 A.H, Thursday, January 26, 2012

There was an interesting conversation between an Ustadz and the jama’ah (congregation) of his religious teaching consisting of senior women. The Ustadz asked his jama’ah, “Do you Ma’ams want to enter paradise?”

All the women answered in unison, “Yeeess….”

The Ustadz asked again, “Don’t you Ma’ams want to die today?”

No one answered. Apparently, not even a person wished to die.

With a smile, the Ustadz said, “Then, how can we go to paradise, if we are never dead”. The Ustadz continued his question, “Do you Ma’ams want me to pray for your long life?” 

Enthusiastically, they all answered, “Yeeess….” 

The Ustadz asked again, “How long do you Ma’ams want to live? A hundred years? Two hundred or even a thousand years?

Even the 80-year old people are already looking awkward, not to mention those who are over a hundred years of age.” 

It turned out that the questions just now did not end there. The Ustadz still kept on asking, “Ma’ams, do you love Allah?”

The answer could be guessed. The senior women simultaneously answered yes.

The Ustadz then said, “Usually when a person falls in love, he/she always long to met with his/her lover, don’t you Ma’ams already long to meet with Allah?”

Silence. No one answered.

Most of us are horrified to talk about death. Forget about talking about it, we do not even dare to imagine it. It is because we are not prepared to face the events after death. Whereas, either prepared or not, we would certainly go through it. Ready or not ready, death will surely come to greet us. Rather than being evasive always, it is better that from now on we start to prepare ourselves to encounter death.

The best preparation is to always remember death. Convince ourselves that death is a door toward Allah. Death is the route to a beautiful place, paradise. By always remembering death, we will always strive to make every action that we do as a step toward the paradise that is full of bliss.

The essence of the human life is a journey back toward Allah. In this brief journey, there are those who return safely, but there are also those who are lost in hell. We are too preoccupied with the dunya (world) to the point that we feel that it is this dunyathat is the real life. We seem to forget that this life is only a transit to seek provisions home. The luster beauty of this dunyamake us sound asleep to tread on the path home.

Rasulullah once said that the smartest person is the one who always remember death. In other words, the smartest person is the one who has vision far into the future. By always remembering his vision and the purpose of his life, he will always be passionate in stepping ahead. The vision of a Muslim is not only limited to the life in this world but more than that, his vision is far away crossing the boundary of the life in this world. The vision of a Muslim is to return and meet with Allah. For him, the moments of death are the beautiful moments because he will soon meet with the beloved who has been sorely missed.

Sometimes we fear of dying because death will separate us with our loved ones. Parents, siblings, husband/wife, children, this shows that we love them more than Allah. If we truly love Allah, then death is like a loving invitation from Allah.

However, we should not ask to die. Dying in vain and without an apparent cause will instead distance us from Allah. The suicide death is a manifestation of the despair over Allah’s compassion. Wanting to die very soon due to the difficulties of the world signifies that we want to escape from the realities of life. A good death is to die in an attempt to be a mercy for the whole universe. Dying in an attempt to bring about the greatest ideals, namely the peace and well-being of the human race.

Finally, the ones who are saved are those who realize that all the wealth and power are the means to get back to Allah. Their bodies might be soaked in tears, drenched in sweats, working hard to subdue the world but their hearts remain only tied to the beloved, Allah SWT. The most important is, how we can work hard, think smart and have a sincere heart.

O Owner of the dunya! Teach us how to subdue the dunya, instead of us being subservient to the dunya. When the glitters of thedunya bedazzle our view, when the abundance of the world jewels thrill our hearts, remind us O Allah! Remind that Your pleasure and Your compassion are greater than the mere dunya which will be left behind for certain. Amin.

Translated and Submitted by a Mujahid


I just use the actress name as a reference. If anyone want the actress’ name to be taken down, message me, and I’ll write a new one.




Fiction, is a noun. Here are some meaning of the word “fiction”

– An imaginative creation or a pretense that does not represent actuality but has been invented.
The act of inventing such a creation or pretense.
2. A lie.
-A literary work whose content is produced by the imagination and is not necessarily based on fact.
-The category of literature comprising works of this kind, including novels and short stories.
4. Law Something untrue that is intentionally represented as true by the narrator.


These four meanings indicate that the word “fiction” is something that is untrue, a lie, tells by a narrator bla bla bla.

But does fiction is the same as miracle?

A miracle is,

1. An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God: “Miracles are spontaneous, they cannot be summoned, but come of themselves” (Katherine Anne Porter).

2. One that excites admiring awe.

3. A miracle play.
But, what will happen if we mixed fiction with miracle? What will happen to the true miracle(s) that happened? Will people still believe it? Or they just thought that it is just a story that was made up, a fiction, a fairy tale, a fables…
If a person said that he SAW a miracle happened. But some said that it is a story that is made up. How come it become a story that is made up when the first person actually SAW it? And what if many person SAW it too? Would it become a lie too?
Unfortunately, people will only believe the beauty hoax than an ugly truth. The truth that is maybe hard to swallow, the truth that is hard to accept… because human is full of ego. They don’t want to admit that they’re wrong, for the sake of their money, for the sake of their “world”, they’re willing to push the truth aside and accept the lie in front.
Why? Maybe because they’re too lazy to seek for it. Maybe because they’re afraid of it. Maybe because they don’t want it…
But in the end, only the truth will be the winner. Even in a fairy tale, the good one will win. Although the disastrous event is for the worst of worst, but the happy ending is waiting impatiently for the true people in the end. The happy ending that is huge, and fair, and beautiful, and everything that is full of good inside of it. Everything from the very small things on earth to the very large and sweet things that can’t be imagine by people from the past and present.

Al Haqqah

1. The Reality (i.e. the Day of Resurrection)!

2. What is the Reality?

3. And what will make you know what the Reality is?

4. Thamud and ‘Ad people denied the Qari’ah [the striking Hour (of Judgement)]!

5. As for Thamud, they were destroyed by the awful cry!

6. And as for ‘Ad, they were destroyed by a furious violent wind;

7. Which Allah imposed on them for seven nights and eight days in succession, so that you could see men lying overthrown (destroyed), as if they were hollow trunks of date-palms!

8. Do you see any remnants of them?

9. And Fir’aun (Pharaoh), and those before him, and the cities overthrown [the towns of the people of [Lout (Lot)] committed sin,

10. And they disobeyed their Lord’s Messenger, so He punished them with a strong punishment.

11. Verily! When the water rose beyond its limits [Nuh’s (Noah) Flood], We carried you (mankind) in the floating [ship that was constructed by Nuh (Noah)].

12. That We might make it a remembrance for you, and the keen ear (person) may (hear and) understand it.

13. Then when the Trumpet will be blown with one blowing (the first one),

14. And the earth and the mountains shall be removed from their places, and crushed with a single crushing,

15. Then on that Day shall the (Great) Event befall,

16. And the heaven will split asunder, for that Day it (the heaven will be frail (weak), and torn up,

17. And the angels will be on its sides, and eight angels will, that Day, bear the Throne of your Lord above them.

18. That Day shall you be brought to Judgement, not a secret of you will be hidden.

19. Then as for him who will be given his Record in his right hand will say: “Take, read my Record!

20. “Surely, I did believe that I shall meet my Account!”

21. So he shall be in a life, well-pleasing.

22. In a lofty Paradise,

23. The fruits in bunches whereof will be low and near at hand.

24. Eat and drink at ease for that which you have sent on before you in days past!

25. But as for him who will be given his Record in his left hand, will say: “I wish that I had not been given my Record!

26. “And that I had never known, how my Account is?

27. “I wish, would that it had been my end (death)!

28. “My wealth has not availed me,

29. “My power and arguments (to defend myself) have gone from me!”

30. (It will be said): “Seize him and fetter him,

31. Then throw him in the blazing Fire.

32. “Then fasten him with a chain whereof the length is seventy cubits!”

33. Verily, He used not to believe in Allah, the Most Great,

34. And urged not on the feeding of Al-Miskin (the poor),

35. So no friend has he here this Day,

36. Nor any food except filth from the washing of wounds,

37. None will eat except the Khati’un (sinners, disbelievers, polytheists, etc.).

38. So I swear by whatsoever you see,

39. And by whatsoever you see not,

40. That this is verily the word of an honoured Messenger [i.e. Jibrael (Gabriel) or Muhammad which he has brought from Allah].

41. It is not the word of a poet, little is that you believe!

42. Nor is it the word of a soothsayer (or a foreteller), little is that you remember!

43. This is the Revelation sent down from the Lord of the ‘Alamin (mankind, jinns and all that exists).

44. And if he (Muhammad ) had forged a false saying concerning Us (Allah),

45. We surely should have seized him by his right hand (or with power and might),

46. And then certainly should have cut off his life artery (Aorta),

47. And none of you could withhold Us from (punishing) him.

48. And verily, this Qur’an is a Reminder for the Muttaqun (pious – see V.2:2).

49. And verily, We know that there are some among you that belie (this Qur’an). [Tafsir At-Tabari, Vol. 29, Page 68]

50. And indeed it (this Qur’an) will be an anguish for the disbelievers (on the Day of Resurrection).

51. And Verily, it (this Qur’an) is an absolute truth with certainty .

52. So glorify the Name of your Lord, the Most Great.

This is surah al Haqqah, it means The Inevitable but I checked the Malay translation and it gives the direct translation that is kiamat, that is the end of the world.. anywho, its pretty much the same since the end of the world is inevitable! .. It is the 69th surah. It has 52 verses, as you can see, and it is a Makiyyah surah, which means the surah was brought down from the Lof Mahfuz in Mecca. 

The thing about this surah.. I feel touched every time I listened or read it. Even thinking about it makes me chills… Its just so powerful to me.

It all started when my friend gave me a download of the video, and it is a video of Sheikh Muhammad al-Mohaisany who recited the surah.. It is extremely beautiful..

The translation is taken from:

p/s: This surah kick-start my Islam category.. 😀


The picture yous see there, at the top of this post, is mine. MINE! I cooked that, fellas!

Actually, the meal was cooked under pressure and under a beautiful coincidence.. my old lady was sick and she can’t cook, so I gave my best shot.

But it is not just that, theres more but I only take picture of this one. The others are just common stuff. Stir fried vege, fried fish…

The name, I don’t know what to name it. It have potatoes, egg plant and an egg, so maybe fried potatoes and egg with burnt egg plant..Despite the ugly look and  over edit.. it tasted good! There were some salty feel, and the muchiness of the potatoes, the burnt egg plant, and scrambled egg..

Say no more, now the steps.

You need:

  1. oil
  2. salt
  3. potatoes, sliced as you wish, be it a wedges shape or triangle or square..
  4. egg plant
  5. egg(s)
  6. chillies, for decoration
  7. onion, not too much
  8. luck


  1. Put the oil in a pan.. or a pot. whatever suits you.
  2. Throw in the potatoes, fries until they turn into golden brown. lol that sounds very chef-ish. but don’t fry too long because you have to fry it again later.
  3. Then after you put the potatoes in a plate, throw in the egg plant, fried until they have small burnt on the surface, like brown-black colour.
  4. Next, put the egg plant in a plate.
  5. After that, give the onion a good stir, crack the egg, use a fork (I use fork to scramble the egg) to give the egg a good stir also, throw in the potatoes, the egg plant, add some salt, and you’re done.
  6. Then put the already chopped chillies on top of the dish and enjoy. This dish is suitable to eat all by itself or can be eaten with rice.
  7. Smile if you’re succeeded.

Some precautionary steps:

  1. Make sure the oil is hot AND the pan is hot enough, then you fry the things, or else it’ll stick to your pan and ruin everything
  2. Use sharp object carefully, and be careful when handling fire.


  1. Be in a kitchen more often.