O Allah! Please grant me the one

Who will be the garment for my soul

Who will satisfy half of my deen

And in doing so make me whole

Make him righteous and on your path

In all he’ll do and say

And sprinkle water on me at Fajr

Reminding me to pray

May he earn from halal sources

And spend within his means

May he seek Allah’s guidance always

To fulfill all his dreams

May he always refer to Qur’an

and the Sunnah as his moral guide

May he thank and appreciate Allah

For the woman at his side

May he be conscious of his anger

And often fast and pray

Be charitable and sensitive

In every possible way

May he honor and protect me

And guide me in this life

And please Allah! Make me worthy

to be his loving wife

And finally, O Allah!

Make him abundant in love and laughter

In taqwa and sincerity

In striving for the hereafter!


I found this on facebook. And.. oh God, this is the most beautiful dua I’ve ever read! :’)

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I don’t always understand lbgt people, but when I do–I don’t.

I don’t understand how someone can become a lgbt person.

I don’t know what happened to them.

What happened to their “nature”..

It is extremely confusing.


They want a world that support their “rights”, to support their “choice”. But, what will happened to the world if EVERYONE is a lgbt person? There will be marriage, but how do the future generation will be born? Because they married with their own sexes–and how would they defined their “spouse” to be “beautiful”?–or “handsome”?? 

And since they are at the legal age to get married, ie they have reach puberty, then how can they reach puberty if they are homosexual?

Like, when a girl reached puberty, her womb is ready to carry a baby, but baby is produced from the intercourse of a married man and his wife–but if the girl is married, how the (what do they called?..) the… urm. other person is who is the same sex as her… a woman to make a baby for her?


Before that,  why do God created a man and a woman? Why didn’t He created human with one sex only? 


Then, He created human with TWO sexes ONLY. But why did He gives them… us sexual changes? 


I like questioning. 😀


Becau-se, it is NATURE. 

Everything on earth is in pairs. The sun, pairs with the moon; the day pairs with the night; the good and the bad; the happy, the sorrow;  the win, the loss;— men, women.

As a conclusion, cuz my time is going to reach 11 and I have Calculus II to study— so!

As the conclusion, lead a healthy lifestyle– both physically and mentally… and sexually. Or just look at the mirror. YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING. YOU ARE A HUMAN. NOT A DONKEY–OR MONKEY–OR FISH. FISH IS GOOD.

Think for a second–ok just for about a quarter of hour– when a person is dealing with his/her sexual “problem”, there are other people out there who are now dying due to starvation, or crying their heart out, pumping fist in the air, not knowing whether they are going to breath for the next 24 hour–because they are in the middle of a battlefield–fighting for their land. While we are sitting in our most comfortable chair we can afford scrolling through facebook pages–or wordpress. 

I am not good at advising, on paper, or on pc screen.. I’m a math major, not a writer, but I love to type. I like the sound.. *klik klak klik klak*

Thats all. 

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you~ 

happy birthday!!

Assalamualaikum and peace be upon you~

May 13 is my mom’s birthday and also, Mothers’ Day. So, its not that difficult to remember. ;D

Unfortunately, I don’t have money.. well not enough money to buy her present, maybe I just make her a home-made card… like I did when I was little. Have to think of something creative…

Actually my initial plan is to make my exam result as her present.. but that didn’t work out.. I just get a 3.1 of cgpa and dropped from the dean list. 😦

Anyway, happy mothers’ day to all mothers on earth and since I’m not that good at sweet talking, have a listen to this song, by Steelheart.

He’s a gift from me to all mothers. 😛 and I’m sure Mili don’t mind.


Women go through a lot of changes in their life. From the fun and joy of childhood, then to the difficulties of teen years. The pain of puberty, lousy friendship… boys etc.

Then she become an adult (i feel like telling the story of a duck..). From there, her husband, her kids, her carrier becomes her main priority. She also have to take care of the house..

From here we can see how women is important to ones life. Women make our life complete. Just imagine a world without women… to be honest, I can’t. I also can’t imagine how a gay couple can survive. No offense, just wondering tho.

Although women are physically smaller than men, but a women’s heart is far more tougher than men’s. And one cannot doubt a women’s will to survive, and to go through bad times… like my mother.

Now, seeing all the female youths nowadays, I wondering how would it be like when they’re getting older. All the scene kids, or the emo or the other sub culture princesses… Including myself. I can’t imagine how my life as a woman in the future would be like. Especially when it comes to explain to my future kids how they mother used to be.look like. I’m not into these crazy sub culture thing, but how my kids going to react when they know that their mother used to have a Helloween CD and a huge fans of several metal bands?

Today I just received a friend request from my primary school teacher, my std 4 teacher. He teaches Chinese language… and he’s old. His hair was very grey 8 years ago and now, its getting grey-er. I haven’t heard news of him for ages. Seeing him reminds me that I am… old.

Sooner or later (if God wills..) I’ll be getting married and starts a family of my own.. and I think the one and only thing that I can do now is, CHANGE. Try to be a better person, be a better woman, build myself a good character… and learn to cook a decent meals! Although I can cook, but I want to cook like my my father, man he kick major ass in kitchen and even cooks better than my mother!

In the conjunction of Mothers’ Day. I want to wish all the beautiful women in this universe a happy mothers day and may God bless you all. Ameen.

p/s: I think Matt Heafy is a gentleman..