men’s diary

When I was younger, I always wanted to know what boys are always talking about. Is it about us girls or they preferred to talk about gaming, comic books etc..

But then I thought, that will make me a girl with mental disorder. You know, walk slowly behind their back just to know what they are gossiping about… Then I came out with a brilliant idea, I can spy on their behaviour. 🙂

Actually, this is quite important. Because someday I will get married and I don’t want to get married to the wrong man.

Then one day, I ACCIDENTALLY found my classmate’s weblog. It turns out to be his “online diary”. Honestly, it is the grossest thing I’ve ever read.  You know. He writes about his girlfriend, his stressful student life, his best friend, his enemy… and I’m started to think that he is actually a chicken. Like, physically, us classmates view him as some sort of celebrity. He is one of the brightest students in Calculus, he speaks well, have all the brilliant ideas, have a great sense of humour (not to me), a star football (soccer)player, but when he writes, he became the most sentimental and softest writer ever.

Luckily that men’s diary aren’t as advance as Tom Riddles’. You know, the scene when Harry wrote on it and the ink eventually dissappear and the diary wrote back? If that kind of diary exist, I will be among the first one to buy it.

This is when I come to a conclusion that, inside every strong man, there’s a garden inside him. I mean, it is good for some reason. Like, he is able to express his feelings, but his “diary” contradicts my opinion about him. Reading his diary makes me wonder that men are actually two-faced. Only those who recognise them extremely well will know exactly who they really are. Until now, I never understand them, including my own father. Maybe I am not his son, the fact that he doesn’t have one; also, every action of his is pretty questionable… oh father.

This is completely different with girls. What they wrote is the same with their character. This is based on my experience/experiment with my own sister. I stalked her weblog and the weblog is she herself. What am I writng in this weblog, in in fact my true self. Believe it or not…

That is why the old saying goes, men have 1 desire and 9 wisdoms; women have 9 desires and 1 wisdom. I personally think this is an insult. But, yeah. It is true though…

Oh well, I don’t always understand men, but when I do … I don’t.

P/s: Eid ul adha Mubarak! To those in the middle of war, and to those who are unfortunate, and for those who celebrate it for the first time, just so you know that I will always pray for your safety and happiness. May this year’s Eid ul adha brings joy and happiness to all.  Ameen.

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Fiction, is a noun. Here are some meaning of the word “fiction”

– An imaginative creation or a pretense that does not represent actuality but has been invented.
The act of inventing such a creation or pretense.
2. A lie.
-A literary work whose content is produced by the imagination and is not necessarily based on fact.
-The category of literature comprising works of this kind, including novels and short stories.
4. Law Something untrue that is intentionally represented as true by the narrator.


These four meanings indicate that the word “fiction” is something that is untrue, a lie, tells by a narrator bla bla bla.

But does fiction is the same as miracle?

A miracle is,

1. An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God: “Miracles are spontaneous, they cannot be summoned, but come of themselves” (Katherine Anne Porter).

2. One that excites admiring awe.

3. A miracle play.
But, what will happen if we mixed fiction with miracle? What will happen to the true miracle(s) that happened? Will people still believe it? Or they just thought that it is just a story that was made up, a fiction, a fairy tale, a fables…
If a person said that he SAW a miracle happened. But some said that it is a story that is made up. How come it become a story that is made up when the first person actually SAW it? And what if many person SAW it too? Would it become a lie too?
Unfortunately, people will only believe the beauty hoax than an ugly truth. The truth that is maybe hard to swallow, the truth that is hard to accept… because human is full of ego. They don’t want to admit that they’re wrong, for the sake of their money, for the sake of their “world”, they’re willing to push the truth aside and accept the lie in front.
Why? Maybe because they’re too lazy to seek for it. Maybe because they’re afraid of it. Maybe because they don’t want it…
But in the end, only the truth will be the winner. Even in a fairy tale, the good one will win. Although the disastrous event is for the worst of worst, but the happy ending is waiting impatiently for the true people in the end. The happy ending that is huge, and fair, and beautiful, and everything that is full of good inside of it. Everything from the very small things on earth to the very large and sweet things that can’t be imagine by people from the past and present.